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Sleeping on a
Palette of blankets
Cuddling in a
Lack of space
Near the jagged
Mattress on which
Your bed is based
Walking through a
Barren prairie
Holding hands under
A blinding sky
You’re sticking flowers
In my facial hair
And loving me for
Never asking why
It’s the things that
Make you smile
The way you make
Me laugh
They’re the things I’ve
Missed for quite a while
So I’m asking you please
Will you make more of these
Little things with me
Standing in the shower
Fully clothed
You’re looking as
Beautiful as a rose
And I’m telling you the
Words I’ve longed to hear
For the past two years
It’s the things that
Make me smile
The way I make
You laugh
They’re the things I’ve
Missed for quite a while
So I’m asking you please,
Will you make more of these
Little things with me
It’s the little things that
Make our love work
The little things that
Fuel our songbird
It’s the little things that
Make me love you
It’s the little things that
Make me love you
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Watching the sunlight
fade into a subtle glow,
Blowing our voices out
to the songs on the radio,
It was then that I knew
How I really felt for you
So let me pretend
for these seconds in time,
that I wrote these
words for you
to let you know
that you are mine
I’m too scared to
share my feelings
So I’ll tell you
through song
Vague enough so
no one can tell
But clear enough
to feel like
we’re falling in love
You’re the soundtrack
to my heart
And you’re always
on repeat
In my mind, in my life,
and everything in between
‘Cause you are all
the music I need
Yeah you are all
the music I need
I know I’ll never
be able to construct
the perfect set
of words
To describe
what you mean
To me
But even these
songs ingrained
in my soul
They will never set my
feelings free
All that can is you
‘Cause you are all I need
you are all I need
You’re the soundtrack
to my heart
And you’re always
on repeat
In my mind, in my life,
and everything in between
‘Cause you are all
the music I need
Yeah you are all
the music I need
You’re the soundtrack
to my heart
And you’re always
on repeat
In my mind, in my life,
and everything in between
‘Cause you are all
the music I need
Yeah you are all
the music I need
You are all
the music I need
You are all
the music I need
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“I’ll love you forever”
was the last thing you told me
And I hope it rings true
I’m never gonna forget you
It haunts me to this day
I’m still in wallow
My heart is hollow
And I don’t know what to do
But I’ll never blame you
You always dealt with more than any person ever should
Yet you always turned out better than you ever thought you could
You’re weird, you’re funny, awesome, sexy
God knows even more
Even if it’s just not the same anymore
Our sun has set
I hope it rises again
“I love you too”
was the last thing I said
Before I broke down in tears
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I hate going home
I hate sleeping alone
I hate everything
without you
The days drag on
and blend together
It’s like this pain will
last forever
And there’s nothing that I can do
Being stuck inside this state
of mind is such a lonely place
All I want to know is that you care
‘Cause I love you more than
anything and I hope somewhere
deep down you feel the same
Do you feel the same?
I can’t go back home
I can’t sleep all alone
I can’t do anything without you
I was a mess this morning
And I will be for a while
Without you by my side
I have to fill up all my time
To distract myself
From the feeling that I...
love you more than anything
and I hope somewhere deep
down you feel the same
Do you feel the same?
I hope someday you come back home
So I won’t feel so alone
Every single day, I miss you
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I hate going home
I hate sleeping alone
I hate everything
without you
The days drag on
and blend together
It’s like this pain will
last forever
And there’s nothing that I can do
cHoRuS
Being stuck inside this state
of mind is such a lonely place
All I want to know is that you care
‘Cause I love you more than
anything and I hope somewhere
deep down you feel the same
Do you feel the same?
I can’t go back home
I can’t sleep all alone
I can’t do anything without you
I was a mess this morning
And I will be for a while
Without you by my side
I have to fill up all my time
To distract myself
From the feeling that I...
love you more than anything
and I hope somewhere deep
down you feel the same
Do you feel the same?
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6. |
Why? (Vocal Demo)
02:38
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I can’t do this anymore
What’s it worth fighting for?
Why’d you have to go and run away?
I’ve poured out my heart and soul
But it seems I’ve only dug a hole
How could forever end today?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Do I love you so damn much when
you don’t even love me enough?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Does it have to be time to go
Before I even get the chance to say no?
I can’t believe it’s been so long
Since I held you in my arms
I long for that feeling every day
They’ve been telling me to move on
Ever since you’ve gone
But how can I do that when I’ve lost my way?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Do I love you so damn much and
you don’t love me enough?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Does it have to be time to go
Before I even get the chance to say no?
I don’t want to go
I just want you to know that I love you so
Why’d you have to go
When our love’s the only thing I really know?
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I can’t do this anymore
What’s it worth fighting for?
Why’d you have to go and run away?
I’ve poured out my heart and soul
But it seems I’ve only dug a hole
How could forever end today?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Do I love you so damn much when
you don’t even love me enough?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Does it have to be time to go
Before I even get the chance to say no?
I can’t believe it’s been so long
Since I held you in my arms
I long for that feeling every day
They’ve been telling me to move on
Ever since you’ve gone
But how can I do that when I’ve lost my way?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Do I love you so damn much and
you don’t love me enough?
Oh whyyyyyyy?
Does it have to be time to go
Before I even get the chance to say no?
I don’t want to go
I just want you to know that I love you so
Why’d you have to go
When our love’s the only thing I really know?
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8. |
Colorado (Vocal Demo)
02:04
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I’d follow you anywhere
In a heartbeat or two
I just need a sec to process
another life with you
This isn’t where I thought I’d go
Or what I’d do
But my life needs a direction and it’s aiming towards you
The world’s wide open,
the sky’s painted blue,
And I’ve never been more inspired
Than when I’m with you
I’m so proud of you and all that
You do
So let me go to Colorado
With you
Is this sad?
Am I pathetic?
Is it true?
I just want to see the whole wide world when I’m with you
Should I give up?
Should I move on?
Are we through?
Well I hope not, ‘cause there’s so much more we have to do
Oh we have to do
The world’s wide open,
the sky’s painted blue,
And I’ve never been more inspired
Than when I’m with you
I’m so proud of you and all that
You do
So let me go to Colorado
With you
So let me go to Colorado
With you
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Would you hate me
For not having it together?
Would you judge me if
I stayed like this forever?
You want me to be better,
Do better,
But I don’t think I can
When I was seventeen,
I had the world in my hands
I don’t know how I let it slip through
I don’t know where I’m going
or what I’m doing
I’m just drifting through
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I'm squaring off with
The days of old
Clinging onto what
I used to know
Pondering my life
Without this ugly mess
Dreaming of the girl
Who's nothing less than
But I digress
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
Eyes wide open yet
I'm still walking blind
Haunted by a future
She couldn't seem to find
Wishing I could turn back time
And get back to those days of feeling fine
When she was mine
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
She's the one who
Helped me survive
She's the reason that I
Never made it out alive
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
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I'm squaring off with
The days of old
Clinging onto what
I used to know
Pondering my life
Without this ugly mess
Dreaming of the girl
Who's nothing less than
But I digress
She's the one who
Helped me survive
She's the reason that I
Never made it out alive
What else I can say
to my Memaria?
My Memaria
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I'm squaring off with
The days of old
Clinging onto what
I used to know
Pondering my life
Without this ugly mess
Dreaming of the girl
Who's nothing less than
But I digress
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
Eyes wide open yet
I'm still walking blind
Haunted by a future
She couldn't seem to find
Wishing I could turn back time
And get back to the days of feeling fine
When she was mine
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
She's the one who
Helped me survive
She's the reason that I
Never made it out alive
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
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13. |
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I'm squaring off with
The days of old
Clinging onto what
I used to know
Pondering my life
Without this ugly mess
Dreaming of the girl
Who's nothing less than
But I digress
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
Eyes wide open yet
I'm still walking blind
Haunted by a future
She couldn't seem to find
Wishing I could turn back time
And get back to those days of feeling fine
When she was mine
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
She's the one who
Helped me survive
She's the reason that I
Never made it out alive
Memaria
Won't you leave me be
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Sometimes I wish
I never met you
Sometimes I wish
I never knew
What it was like
To fall in love
At least then it
Wouldn’t hurt so much
To see you
around
Sometimes I wish
I never met you
Sometimes I wish
I never knew
What it was like
To fall out of love
To crash down to
Earth from the heavens
Above
At least then it
Wouldn’t hurt so much
To not have you
around
It’s a little bit funny
I’ve never felt more lonely
But I always want to be alone
At least now it
won’t hurt so much
when my true
colors are shown
My memories may
be rose-colored
but they’re also
painted blue
And it’s times like these
I wish I never met you
But I know I wouldn’t
Be who I am
Without you
And maybe that’s what
Hurts the most
When someone builds
You up then fades away
When you have no control
you don’t get a say
and you’re forced to carry
On into a new life
a new dawn
a new day
Sometimes I wish
the memories
Would
stop flooding in
But I know i’d
still be sad
not thinking
about what was,
what we could have been
‘Cause it’s only sometimes
it’s only sometimes
it’s only sometimes
I wish I never met you
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This is a love song
For the emotionally crippled
I won't always
Be able to
Express these
Feelings of mine
So, for now
I will leave you
With a
Loveyoubye
Loveyoubye
Loveyoubye
That is what I'll say
When I
Want you to know
How I feel
Without having to
Be too real
I don't like talking
'Bout my feelings
'Cause my mind
Just starts to wander
But every time I
See your face
I can't help but
Stop and wonder
How I ever got
So lucky
To have you
Loveyoubye
Loveyoubye
That is what I'll say
When I
Want you to know
How I feel
Without having to
Be too real
Loveyoubye
Loveyoubye
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I feel lost in my headspace
In this world I have no place
You see these lines upon my face
They’re scars from trying to escape
These feelings I’ve tucked deep away
Something needs to give today
Before my head implodes
Just for you to say
It's not enough
It's just too tough
You're making a mistake
I’ll be fine
You're wasting time
I don’t know what to do
Have you tried to look inside
You got the tools you need to thrive
This indecision is preventin'
Me from breakin’ from this prison
I know that I did the time
Took five years to cross the line
I want to use what I chose to view
at least the sights were nice with you
It's not enough
It's just too tough
You're making a mistake
I’ll be fine
You're wasting time
I don’t know what to do
I feel lost
What was the cost
I feel lost
What was the cost
I feel lost
What was the cost
I feel lost
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I don’t know what I want
All I know is I want to be loved
Whether I speak it into
existence, or it’s gifted
from the stars above
But everyone I meet
seems to break my heart and
drag it through the streets
And now I’ve become a tundra,
when all I want is to feel some heat
I just want to be happy
I just want to be your everything
So whoever you are,
Please dial the number you
see on your screen
I just want to be happy
I just want to be happy
I just want to be happy
But that’s not something
I know how to be
I don’t know what you want
All I know is I want to love you
My heart gets wrapped up in daydreams
but darling, that’s all it can do
When my head kills itself over
the things that aren’t but might
I hope that we can make it
to the other side of the night
I just want you to be happy
I just want to be your everything
You know you have my number,
So call me whenever you’re free
I just want you to be happy
(Believe me, I want that too)
I just want you to be happy
(I know this is nothing new)
I just want you to be happy
But that’s not something I know how to do
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I think I found my person
And I don’t think they’ll ever know
Just how hard it is to let them go
As they’re in love with someone else
And I have to let things be
‘Cause if my love was truly selfless
I’d be happy they’re happier without me
But if my selfish self could take the stage,
He’d have a million more things to say
‘Cause even though both halves
Want them to be happy
He knows I’d be happier if
they were happy with me
Lately, they’re everywhere I go
And they’re everything I see
They’re the flowers in my garden
And the honey in my tea
And that should speak volumes
Since the drink’s usually too bitter
Maybe that’s a metaphor for my life
And how they make it better
Or maybe it’s just another phrase
That doesn’t mean a thing
In the grander scheme of
Getting what I want versus
Appreciating what I need
I know it’s unhealthy to wait
Around for nothing,
hoping they finally come around
When I choose to leave,
And muddling through
These tangled thoughts in my head
Is really taking a toll on me
So even though you’re
Everything I want
Maybe you’re not what I need
Maybe I’m not what you need
Maybe that’s how it has to be
I think I found my person
And I don’t think they’ll ever know
Just how hard it was to let them go
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I’m sick of sitting in this sadness
I wanna burst right through the seams
I don’t care if that sounds cliché
Because it means something to me
I’m sick of hearing all these songs
That seem to have no deeper meaning
There should be way more to life then
the songs we can’t stop singing
We shouldn’t give ourselves the time
to reflect on our regrets
We need to make a change in
These moments we’re bound to forget
It isn’t nothing new,
It’s what we’ve got ourselves into
But it’s hard not to feel blue
When it always feels like
There’s nothing we can do
We can do
We can do
We can do
We shouldn’t give ourselves the time
to reflect on our regrets
We need to make a change in
These moments we’re bound to forget
We need to pray that these events
won’t be the memories that we kept
We’ve got to hold onto hope
When it’s all we have
It’s all we have
It’s all we have left
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It's time to wake up fresh and face the music
Nobody likes you, quite the case of Mar-Mar blues
Except for me, I will never leave your side
And so I have a plan to which we will abide
We'll take the stage and then we'll win the talent show
After helping Kevin pass his math class so
You can know it's okay to be more than what meets the eye
Wish I could relate the intangibles to you, of falling in love with your friends and all they can do
There's nothing wrong with being
Unapologetically you, so
Just be yourself; that's the only person I wanna be
Just be yourself; there's no one else I'd rather be than me
Just be yourself; doesn't take too much to see
That when you be yourself there's nothing else that you have to be
I just am oh what's it to you
I don't give a fuck, why do you
I know a cool one when I see one
Won't let your preconceptions consume you
Whatever you're owed from the world
Isn't worth the pain you've put us through
But friends help friends when they need it
You shouldn't have to ask
So don't let that character of yours turn into a mask, and
Just be yourself; that's the only person that you should be
Just be yourself; no one wants to see you blossom more than me
Just be yourself; doesn't take two of us to see
That when you be yourself there's nothing else that you have to be
It's easier said than done but trust me when I say
There's no one else I'd rather be saying this to
No one else I'd rather be than me, watching you be you
Just be yourself and you'll finally be cool
Just be yourself and you'll finally be cool
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25. |
Happy Palentine's Day
03:06
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We matched
We met
Got acquainted
Had sex
All within two weeks
And just like that
I packed my bags
And left a kiss on the cheek
You said you wouldn’t start too soon
Only when it’s right
It’s not like you need me but
I’m glad you want me tonight
But we’ve all done all that couples can do
So why can’t you get a clue?
I’d like to see this through
I want to commit to you
Through
Commit to you
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I never knew we were
Tandemly growing cold
That we'd both end up lifeless
Without a pulse in our souls
Akin to when our spark was still
Keeping me warm
But even if wisdom twice your age
Couldn't keep you in check
And the hands of fate
Tied a rope around your neck
At least you made it out
Could it be I don't mourn you
As much as that version of me
Disconnected in time
my memento mori
I always thought I'd see you again
On the day the sky fell
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Stayed at my parents last night
Could only talk about coffee and you
That’s what happens when conversations
Turn conservative and I have nothing to talk to
We’ve only been apart for a day and
That’s far more than I need
I left that house as soon as I could
And now I’m relieved
Now I’m okay at home in bed with you
Sleeping next to me
You’re the only family I wanted to be
The only family I wanted to be with on this holiday for two
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Mitchell Matthews Springfield, Missouri
of Mitchell Matthews Media
midwest emo legend x pop twink
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